{weight} loss

 Throughout
my whole adolescent and adult life
I have been
       fat.
       Or been told I was fat.
       Or thought I was fat.
  Therefore,
I spent years {thirty of them}
on a
        diet.
        Or cheating on a diet.
        Or trying the latest diet.

  And then, one day, I was done.
I stopped living by food lists in        
         some book.
         And started listening to myself.
         And started learning about hunger.
         And started to know what tasted good to me.
         And what didn't.

It has taken me
          ten years.
          But I trust myself.

  Thanks to
family and close friends,
I have learned
         acceptance.
         And patience.
         And am leaving self-loathing and punishment behind.
   Towards
{weight} loss I am walking. Just walking.
I will not be
         running.
         Or jumping through hoops.
         Or being radical. {i hate that word}

  And,
  No matter
how quickly I actually experience the loss of some
          weight....
          I know one thing for sure.
         This journey's for me.