Monday, March 18, 2013


Can you feel it?
I can.
Spring is trying. The sun is trying.
And we're all trying to be patient as we wait for the "out like a lamb" side of this somewhat two-faced month of March.
We're being told up here in the Boston area that we could get hit with another foot of snow tomorrow. Sigh.
Last week they said three inches and we got a foot. I'm hoping the reverse holds true tomorrow.

But enough about the weather.
I only share the weather report because it seems to perfectly reflect my state of being....longing to burst forth with light and warmth and growth and change....yet somehow blocked. Clouded in. Fogged over. Even frozen solid. Oh, I don't stop. And I don't even have any tangible complaints. In fact, if you ask me, I'd probably give you a pretty sunny report.

Like March, however, I can be a bit confusing. Or confused. Let's call it two-sided, cause I sincerely hope I'm not two-faced.

With the changing season that is my life comes new horizons - promises and more time and self acceptance.
This new season can also be accompanied by profound waves of nostalgia - by thoughts of all that's been fulfilled, by the awareness of less time and by the fear of some questions that cut me to the core of self. Cloudy, right?

But can you feel it?
I can.
Even as I type, I can feel it. That light that's inside trying to burst forth.
With each stroke of the key board, each feeble attempt to put this all into words, I feel it.
A surrender to the now. A willingness to be caught in this tug of war between the seasons of my life. And a determination to push through the clouds and the fog until there's a clear path before me.

One of the highlights of this 11th week of 2013, 
was being asked to guest post
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  1. I have to say that I feel the way you do this morning...promise, nostalgia and questions that are making me feel cloudy.

  2. I am SO ready for spring! But alas, we're in for in again tonight!

  3. we are getting snow.....everything comes, all in good time!!

  4. This is beautifully written. March can often be the worst of months with hopes high, and then dashed in a back and forth pattern. At least with January, and February you know what to expect. I just hope Easter is warm, because a cold Easter is awful. A any rate, soon we will all be basking in Spring's glories!

  5. This is so beautifully written. I've been feeling the same way lately, maybe it's the weather.

  6. Nostalgia and an almost panic-y longing for what has gone by hit me often in this stage of life. I think we have come to realize just how swiftly time passes, and it is sobering.

    Took my daughter back to school in TX. Spring is going on there! I saw redbuds, iris, wisteria all in bloom. But now I am home and snuggled in a blanket!