Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Beneath the Surface


I knelt down in the snow right at the edge of the pond in order to capture the reflection of the clouds. It was almost 6:00. I'd been out of work for an hour, I was still outside and there was still some daylight left! As I focused on the melted waters, I thought about all that's been churning under the frozen surface all winter long. There's another whole world underneath the ice. A world that's easy to forget about while the snowy, winter white blankets the pond.

Kneeling there, alone with my thoughts, I breathed in the crisp air and felt a tear slide down my cheek. These moments of connection. Of letting go. Of purposed solitude. These moments are vital. Cherished. It is these moments that melt me. That keep me open, and connect me to all the questions that churn inside me. I seem to always have far more questions than answers....which I guess is pretty normal. But these past few months, my 'deep waters' have been particularly turbulent.

Until yesterday.

Kneeling there, alone by the melting pond, I found an answer. It came first in the hint, the whisper of a tiny thought. Churn-surface-melt-beneath...these words invited me to dance with them. A slow dance. A safe dance. With each connection, another whisper and then.......then the melody grew stronger. And an idea was born. Where there had been trouble and confusion, there was now peace and understanding. Clarity.

As I rose to continue my walk, I felt a kinship with this in between season. No longer winter. Not yet spring. All that is hidden under the frozen waters, the hard earth, the barren branches...all that has been churning is ready to burst. I felt ready to burst! I've got things to say to some people. Things to write. A path to pursue.

It's been a long winter. Oh, the actual winter season hasn't bothered me. But the months of troubled waters churning beneath the surface of me?.....well, that "winter" is ready for warmth. For blooms. For spring.



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11 comments:

  1. Beautiful pics, love the reflection!

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  2. Gorgeous.

    This was a long winter, in so many ways. I too am so hopeful by the increased light - it was amazing to walk into my apartment when there was still daylight!

    Rain on Thursday - sure!

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  3. lovely photos and texture! i like the reflection and the buds.

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  4. Oh Adrianne...if ever there was a time I wish I could pull someone through all the invisible wires that virtually connect us...this would be one of those times. I can relate to this post on so many levels and so many ways. I feel your sense of clarity and the in between stage...preparing to burst...preparing to evolve...preparing to soar! Big hugs...xoxo

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  5. Beautiful images and a beautiful post.

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  6. Such a beautiful picture and post :)

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  7. I love the way you express your thoughts. I'm so glad you found a moment of clarity through solitude. I agree that it has been an emotional season of trying to find the next steps. Here is to hope for the future!

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  8. Here is to spring and the new season on so many levels.

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  9. Love the peace I sense here. You are so wise to get your outdoors time regularly. I long for a pond of my own to draw from.

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  10. WoW adrienne, your words really captivate me, draw me in!!

    i thought of you as we changed the clocks. knowing you would have more time at your beloved pond!!

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  11. Beautiful photo and wonderful thoughts.

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