Clearly

"I can see clearly now the rain is gone,

I can see all obstacles in my way.

Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind...

Oh yes, I can make it now the pain is gone

All of the bad feelings have disappeared.

Here's the rainbow I've been praying for....

Look all around,

Look straight ahead...

It's gonna be a bright, bright, bright sunshiny day."

Jimmy Cliff

It's true.

I can see clearly.

Even though I can't see all of the obstacles. {can we ever?}

And I'd be lying if I said all of the bad feelings have disappeared. {will they ever?}

But I can say,

with an absurd amount of confidence,

that I can see clearly now.

Because my dark clouds have vanished,

I won't bore you with the darkness.

The darkness that told an eleven year old girl that she was fat.

The darkness that has followed her, and shaped her and gripped her tightly

for about forty years.

She's tried to escape.

Deny it's existence.

Act like it wasn't there.

Control it.

Oh yes....there have been so many attempts at that dreaded self control!

I think that she's even tried to face it.

Really honestly face it several times.

But it's haunted her and defeated her time and time again.

Until now.

It's true.

And I can't even completely explain it.

I just know that I can see clearly now.

Not clearly in the sense that I'm all done, or have it all figured out

or know all the answers.

I still have weight I want to loose and strength I want to gain.

I have mindsets I want to loose and habits I want to gain.

And many, many more things to learn on this wellness journey.

But for me, today,

it's not about seeing the path clearly.

It's about believing that as it becomes clear I will walk.

It's crystal clear to me now that I will walk the path.

That I will take the steps.

That I will keep moving forward.

I will continue to learn and overcome any obstacles.

There will be no looking back.

No turning back.

Just bright, sunshiny days ahead.

{confession time...extremely hard to hit publish on this post...but out there it goes...just a step on the path}

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